The way it is

So I dream of beaches, laying on the beach somewhere, looking out at the pristine blue water. Hearing the waves just crash as they hit the sand. Looking out every morning and seeing the ocean just steps away from where I was just sleeping. Building sand castles in the sand or even sand pyramids is fun too.
Somewhere that is quiet and peaceful. Where I can compose my thoughts and actually take a bit of time to relax and enjoy doing absolutely nothing. Isn't that what vacations are for? Don't get me wrong, playing the tourist is fun too and I enjoy seeing the sights and adventuring out.

As well the surfing, I do not surf but watching the surfers ride the huge massive waves and hearing the thunderous crashes as the waves hit the ocean....is there a place? Maybe in a day or two I will discover this place :)

8 days

It's going to be a long 8 days I think. I am tired, overworked and nervous. I am currently in the midst of review week and I feel like I should know everything there is to know but for some reason it feels like the information is going in, but not staying inside my head. I am especially not looking forward to the skills lab final, that is a horrifying experience. You basically regurgitate all the information you have learned all semester long from lab to an instructor...I do not do well on oral and performance exams, they are my weakness. So I've already attended 4 hours of practice labs and still do not feel like I know how to properly manage IV's or run secondary medications. But nursing school was never meant to be easy.

My other exams shouldn't be all that difficult. I usually do well on exams and find them not to difficult to do. Then next week friday, I graduate. I am not done my program until two months later, but next friday I get to walk across the stage, get my empty diploma, shake some hands and celebrate my achievement. It's a celebration of what we as students have accomplished and worked towards for the past few years. It's also kind of scary at the same time to think in two months we can work on our own in a hospital setting. We will be professionals...or so we hope.

Well for now I am just going to worry about finishing my finals, and graduating, the rest of the stress from clinical and preceptorship can wait until I am faced with that challenge.

What about the room?

So completely nauseated this afternoon after lunch, I made my way to school. I was dreading every step from my car into the building and up the hallway, up the flight of stairs and down the longest winding hall to the room......yes the room that we as students are critiqued and made a lesson of (basically)...welcome to every nursing students worst nightmare, a place called "THE SPHERE".....in this room sits a robot who is made to simulate a patient in a hospital setting. It is quite possibly the most freaky robot any person would ever see, sort of an ugly bugger. It just stares at you with these huge bug eyes, the mouth dropped open and it just blinks. Constantly blinks at you and it's voice sounds soothing and calm.(the only good thing in this situation). It cannot move its arms or legs, it just lays there with this blank expression on its face.

Anyways today was day one of my tedious task of keeping this robot alive and using my super awesome nursing skills to care for it. Let's just say you are thrown into a room with a few of your peers while the instructors hide behind a wall of two way glass, we can't see them but we know they are there. OOooooh how much I hate this room...by the way the instructors control this robot, they can make it easy, or they can make it difficult. Today was just an example of this. It was so busy. It felt like we were in there for maybe fifteen minutes but by the time we were done it had been nearly 50 minutes....time flies when your in this room.

My experiences there in the past have never been good, in fact have led to me being in tears thinking I am incompetent and dumb. I know this feeling is shared by my fellow peers. So anyways the day dragged on and the patient needless to say survived what we had to do and successfully did not die on us.....THE ROBOT LIVED!!! I guess maybe I might make a good nurse after all. Anyways as soon as our scenario is over we are rushed back to the tiny holding cell.....I mean conference room.....where are we put on pedastals and made examples of, that is quite possibly the most gut wrenching experience but when someone says something positive about you, it makes it worth it really....at least we learn by example and don't screw up in the real world....it is a safe and nurturing learning environment.

Anyways back there again tomorrow, should be interesting. We'll see, maybe tomorrow won't be as scary as today was.

back again

So it seems my quest to un-neglect my blog did not work. Things have been incredibly busy lately. I also attempted to boycott facebook but that would be like going without water...did not work!
So I finished my pediatric rotation and what a difficult rotation that was. It was just hard because the patients are so little and they're really sick too. What I liked about them was that they don't talk back to you like older patients do. And through sickness they seem to grin and bare it where as an adult cries and whines constantly to ease the pain. Children cannot express pain as adults do but seriously some adults do milk the system I think.
It was an uneventful three days, it is Tuesday and I am on my weekend because they scheduled our clinical over the weekend. Nursing school is pure torture I think because they are free to deteremine whatever schedule works best for them and not for the students who have lives and families outside of school. They just like to put us through the most stress one person can aquire.
Other than that me and my partner are doing a presentation on thursday for class on fetal alcohol syndrome. It is a very interesting topic I think. So it seems like we are just running and busy and going constantly.
Once we graduate we are graced with one week off before we start our community rotation and our preceptorship rotation which then ends us being completely done by the end of July. It should be interesting, only four more months to go.

Neglected blog

I think my blog has been neglected, facebook is absorbing to the point that I have been MIA for a few days from it and able to cope but my poor blog is facing more neglect than facebook ever has. I just find facebook tiring lately and I really don't talk to all 200 of my friends on there. So I wonder what is facebook really for then?
I just wanted to say that I haven't forgotten about my blog....but I have a midterm tomorrow so I have to study, so ultimately my blog has to be neglected for one more day.

Apparently I've been tagged.

Alright so Mick tagged me, here's how this goes:

Here are the rules:
1. Pick up the nearest book (of at least 123 pages).
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag five other people.

So my nearest book happened to be my 818 page Introduction to Maternity and pediatric nursing textbook...yay!
haha this is going to be fun!

"Presentation refers to the fetal part that enters the pelvis first. The cephalic presentation is most common. Any of the following four variations of cephalic presentations can occur, depending on the extent to which the fetal head is flexed:
The vertex presentation, with the fetal head fully flexed, is the most favorable cephalic variation because the smallest possible diameter of hte head enters the pelvis. It occurs in about 96% of births."

So I tag: Ashley P., Sonya, Garth, Adrienne & lastly Jeremia (though I don't think he ever looks at his blog anymore).
Those are the only 5 people linked to my blog and hopefully read it? maybe? hehe

oh yeah and Ps-Mick did you learn something about childbirth from my above exerpt? heehee

27 Today

Today I turned 27. I thought that turning 25 felt old but actually turning 27 I don't feel old. I think that when I turn 30, it may hit me that I am old but for now I will just enjoy being 27. I did have a really good birthday, spent sometime with my family which was good. We also had a cake which was a good suprise. I didn't think that I would get a cake this year but my family suprises me sometimes.

This year my birthday happens to fall during reading week which is nice, I get a holiday during my birthday....but I guess I will have to start my papers soon anyways to get them out of the way. The much dreaded clinical rotation starts next monday. 3 more rotations to go, we'll see how this one goes first.